MISS ME, MISTER?

Missed me, missed me, now you've got to kiss me
If you kiss me, mister, I might tell my sister
If I tell her, mister, she might tell my mother
And my mother, mister, she might tell my father
And my father mister, he won't be too happy
And he'll have his lawyer come up from the city and arrest you, mister
So I wouldn't miss me if you get me, mister, see

ON TAKING ACCOUNTABILITY

Wes Lang - If you were still here I'd admit I'm an asshole

TRAUMA BONDING

Badmouth, sad mouth, you were an unhappy child
That doesn't make your lying tongue alright

Wash it out, wash it out, wash it out

'cause everything is poison
You'll be the unhappy one
Your lips taste of poison
You're gonna be left alone

ON CREATIVITY

CURRENT READ: CARL JUNG ON CONSCIOUSNESS

The more that consciousness is influenced by prejudices, errors, fantasies, and infantile wishes, the more the already existing gap will widen into a neurotic dissociation and lead to a more or less artificial life far removed from healthy instincts, nature, and truth. (Carl Jung)

ON LIFE AND FRUSTRATIONS

© Anna Leevia

Tolerance to frustration and setbacks is the most important psychical condition to achieve emotional maturity. Some fortunate people are born with a sweet disposition and are naturally more tolerant to pain and suffering; their path to emotional maturity is, consequently, much easier. But many are less tolerant, and lose control when things don’t go their way; they must be helped to learn how to face and handle the pain inherent to life.
Children must be encouraged to experiment and to understand that, occasionally, failure is a part of life and not a cause for shame. They have to be encouraged to put themselves in other people’s shoes, even those who are suffering, as they’ll develop empathy by feeling for others. Once they lose the fear of feeling the pain inherent to life, they can humbly accept the uncertainty of the human condition: the fact that we know nothing of our future.
People who have a higher tolerance to uncomfortable situations learn to live better with doubt, which is essential to keep the brain “spongelike” and open to the new; they are also able to make honest assessments of themselves, an important skill for their emotional and intellectual evolution throughout life.

Dr. Flavio Gikovate

ON LOSS: 2 years without my mother

"ONLY IN BRAZIL"

One of my favorite albums is Fernanda Abreu's Veneno da Lata. Finally there is a documentary that tells the crazy story that inspired the album: in 1987, shortly after the end of the dictatorship in Brazil, 22 TONS of marijuana vacuum packed in cans were dumped in Rio's coast. Months later, big part of the 15.000 cans started washing ashore Rio and Sao Paulo, bringing happiness to thousands of people that never tried that high quality product - plus, for FREE. A gift from Iemanjá! You can watch the full doku (unfortunately without subtitles) here:

YOU'RE ART NOUVEAU

You fashion words that fools lap up
And call yourself a poet
Tattooed pretense upon your skin
So everyone will know it

You, my sweet, are a fool
You, my sweet, are plain and weak
Go let the other girls
Indulge the crap that you excrete

Declare yourself an honest man
Who needs a chance to prove it
But traps were laid, the bed was made
So obvious you blew it

DISSENT

from Latin dissentire ‘differ in sentiment.’

WHO ARE WE

He felt her curves surrounding his neck
Like a yoke he knows, he'll never forget
The way she cut through his bed
Like a snake would bite through a cave of flesh

But he holds her, though she's broken
He swears he don't care where she's been
He's tired of being human
He wears her close to the bone as though she were his own skin

He shoots from the heart instead of the head
His mouth and his words, they rarely connect
He looks to the past and where his tongue's tread
And he knows he's meant the opposite

Who are we to love at all?

YES AMERICA... [not]

NYC 2016 ©Anna Leevia

16 Berlin

 

TRUST ME

If I warn I'll start lying to you
and then I do
am I then
telling the truth?

ON LOOKING INSIDE

GREAT MOVIE

INDIA

PUMPKIN CARVIN' IN NYC

LOOP FINDING ME

Lisbon 2014 ©Anna Leevia

TODAY IN BERLIN

ISN'T FAR TO NOWHERE

Copenhagen 2013 ©Anna Leevia

SPIRIT SPIT

You're elevated (connected to the depths of the seven seas)
You're stimulated (I can feel your pulse and now it's part of me)
I'll be creative (anything you want I will forever be)
For you I'll save it

Spiritualize my sensuality, in your eyes, between you and me

Le chien

 

IS THERE LIFE AFTER YOUTH?

Berlin 2010 ©Anna Leevia

HOME

Berlin 2010 ©Anna Leevia

burn the books they've got too many names and psychosis
all this incriminating evidence would surely haunt me
if someone broke into my house

HAUNTS ME

Morocco 2013. ©Anna Leevia

"I can't think of any need in childhood as the need for a father's protection."

Sigmund Freud

I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father's protection. Sigmund Freud
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/childhood.html

NO REASON TO STAY IS A REASON TO GO

Inhotim, 2011. ©Anna Leevia

LOVE AT FIRST REJECTION

New Jersey, 2016 ©Anna Leevia

Reject me
I'll love you

Confirmation bias
don't you see
what you want
double blind

I am clear
in my mind.

Reject me
I'll love you

AFFECTION

If I ingested you
I'll digest you.

ADDICTION

I cannot fight not to be misread one more time
I cannot fight not to be misled one more time

How can I complain when Im the one who reaches for it?

DO YOU BUY VINYL?

THE END.

We leave it like this.
not gonna insist.
We're sad and upset
Exploring, we said.
I guess we are right.
We tried. We're fine.

DECEIVE OR PERCEIVE

Righteousness without loving compassion

THE SERENITY OF SUFFERING

Beelitz, Germany, 2012. ©Anna Leevia

The boyfriend criticizes her for posting about losing her mother
Yet he offers words of consolation for anyone that shares the loss of their pet


Are we making sense yet?






"No "we" should be taken for granted when the subject is looking at
other people's pain."
Susan Sontag - Regarding The Pain of Others

GOOD MOVIE

HOME

Berlin 2010 ©Anna Leevia

THAT L WORD

Falling in love?

Failing in love.

MAN AND HIS SYMBOLS

"Man's recurring interest in - almost obsession with - the symbols of the unconscious have a profoundly significant, almost a nourishing and sustaining inner abstraction - wether they occur in the myths and fairy tales or in visual arts, which satisfy and delight us by a constant appeal to the unconscious. "

Carl Jung, Man and His Symbols

Eugen Bleuler

Hysteria, types of pain and abnormal behaviour are in fact symbolically meaningful. They are one way in which the unconscious mind expresses itself, just as it may in dreams, and they are equally symbolic. “Complexes” - repressed emotional themes that can cause constant psychological disturbances or even, in many cases, the symptoms of neurosis. No individual symbolic imafe can be said to have a dogmatically fixed, generalized meaning.

SPOTLIGHT OR DARKNESS

Los Angeles 2015 ©Anna Leevia

So it goes in the city of angels.

LOVE

©Anna Leevia

PATER OR THE COMFORT OF BEING SAD

caring cheater
attentious liar
loving hipocrite

you are.

are we?

CARTE DU TENDRE

My favorite Lac D'indiference

IN PRAISE OF PRODUCTIVE PROCRASTINATION: KEN BUTLER

On my wanderings I had the privilege to witness a good number of experimental music acts. Bad ones, good ones, strange ones. One highlight was a live performance from Ken Butler, an American artist, musician and experimental music instrument builder. I used to live up from Sideshow gallery in New York, where the concert above took place in October 2011. Learn more about Butler's unique work: http://kenbutler.squarespace.com//

Lately I've been writing a lot for the Brazilian travel market, leaving me almost no time to write in english about my experiences off work. I'm starting a series called "In Praise Of Productive Procrastination", to share videos of interesting things I come across. Videos/audios won't be edited to excellence. The point here is sharing things that are usually buried on my numerous HD disks.

MEANING

 Too many thoughts about life. About my values. About love. About choices. About what I left behind, and what I built or destroyed. Very sentimental. Very lost but very found on realizing what I (really) need / what matters to me in life. Love. Family. Career. Travel. Organization. Routine. Escapism. Sport. Truth. Variation. Therapy. MEANING.

"in an assassination crisis the anti-human and reactionary forces tend to solidify their prejudices and to use all ruptures as a means of knocking natural Freedom off the goddamned end seat at the bar."

"I'm also told by the God-fearing that I have 'sinned' because I was born a human being and once upon a time human beings did something to one Jesus Christ. I neither killed Christ or Kennedy." 

“those little headshrinkers… saying this is so because your mother had a clubfoot and your father drank and a chicken shitted in your mouth when you were three years old and therefore you are a homosexual or a punchpress operator. Everything but the truth: simply that some men feel bad because life is bad for them the way it is and it could easily be made better.”

"they hang in the parks with the Che idol, with pictures of Castro in their amulets, going OOOOOOOOMMMMMOOOOOOOMMM while William Burroughs, Jean Genet and Allen Ginsberg lead them. these writers have gone, soft, cuckoo, eggshit, female – not homo but female – and if I were a cop I’d feel like clubbing their addled brains myself."


— Charles Bukowski

GOOD MOVIE

"Give your children enough money to do something,
not enough to do nothing"

IGNORANCE BLISS

"Knowledge without follow-through is worse than no knowledge at all. because if you're guessing and it doesn't work out you can just say, shit, the gods are against me. but if you know and don't do, you've got attics and dark halls in your mind to walk up and down in and wonder about. this ain't healthy, leads to unpleasant evenings, too much to drink and the shredding machine."

Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)

FRIENDSHIP

If you want to know who your friends are, get yourself a jail sentence. 

Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)

YOU SAY YOU WANTED REVOLUTION?

nazi book burnings, 10 may 1933

"...then please be careful of your leaders, for there are many in your ranks who would rather be president of General Motors than burn down the Shell Oil station around the corner. but since they can’t have one, they take the other"
Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)

"The most radical revolutionary will become a conservative the day after the revolution."
Hannah Arendt 

Godard also examines the role of the revolutionary within western culture. Although he believes western culture needs to be destroyed, it can only be done so by the rejection of intellectualisation. "There is only one way to be an intellectual revolutionary, and that is to give up being an intellectual"