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all this incriminating evidence would surely haunt me
if someone broke into my house
7/13/16
HAUNTS ME
Morocco 2013. ©Anna Leevia
"I can't think of any need in childhood as the need for a father's protection."
Sigmund Freud
I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father's protection.
Sigmund Freud
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/childhood.html
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/childhood.html
6/15/16
5/18/16
LOVE AT FIRST REJECTION
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| New Jersey, 2016 ©Anna Leevia |
Reject me
I'll love you
Confirmation bias
don't you see
what you want
double blind
I am clear
in my mind.
Reject me
I'll love you
5/5/16
4/15/16
ADDICTION
I cannot fight not to be misread one more time
I cannot fight not to be misled one more time
How can I complain when Im the one who reaches for it?
I cannot fight not to be misled one more time
How can I complain when Im the one who reaches for it?
4/9/16
THE END.
We leave it like this.
not gonna insist.
We're sad and upset
Exploring, we said.
I guess we are right.
We tried. We're fine.
not gonna insist.
We're sad and upset
Exploring, we said.
I guess we are right.
We tried. We're fine.
4/1/16
3/10/16
THE SERENITY OF SUFFERING
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| Beelitz, Germany, 2012. ©Anna Leevia |
The boyfriend criticizes her for posting about losing her mother
Yet he offers words of consolation for anyone that shares the loss of their pet
Are we making sense yet?
"No "we" should be taken for granted when the subject is looking at
other people's pain."
Susan Sontag - Regarding The Pain of Others
3/1/16
2/22/16
1/13/16
MAN AND HIS SYMBOLS
"Man's recurring interest in - almost obsession with - the symbols of the unconscious have a profoundly significant, almost a nourishing and sustaining inner abstraction - wether they occur in the myths and fairy tales or in visual arts, which satisfy and delight us by a constant appeal to the unconscious. "
Carl Jung, Man and His Symbols
1/9/16
Eugen Bleuler
12/22/15
11/27/15
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11/4/15
IN PRAISE OF PRODUCTIVE PROCRASTINATION: KEN BUTLER
On my wanderings I had the privilege to witness a good
number of experimental music acts. Bad ones, good ones, strange ones.
One highlight was a live performance from Ken Butler, an
American artist, musician and experimental music
instrument builder. I used to live up from Sideshow gallery in New
York, where the concert above took place in October 2011. Learn more about
Butler's unique work: http://kenbutler.squarespace.com//
Lately I've been writing a lot for the Brazilian travel market, leaving
me almost no time to write in english about my experiences off work. I'm
starting a series called "In Praise Of Productive Procrastination", to
share videos of interesting things I come across. Videos/audios
won't be edited to excellence. The point here is sharing things that are
usually buried on my numerous HD disks.
11/3/15
MEANING
Too many thoughts about life. About my values. About love. About choices. About what I left behind, and what I built or destroyed. Very sentimental. Very lost but very found on realizing what I (really) need / what matters to me in life. Love. Family. Career. Travel. Organization. Routine. Escapism. Sport. Truth. Variation. Therapy. MEANING.
11/1/15
"in an assassination crisis the anti-human and reactionary forces tend to solidify their prejudices and to use all ruptures as a means of knocking natural Freedom off the goddamned end seat at the bar."
"I'm also told by the God-fearing that I have 'sinned' because I was born a human being and once upon a time human beings did something to one Jesus Christ. I neither killed Christ or Kennedy."
“those little headshrinkers… saying this is so because your mother had a clubfoot and your father drank and a chicken shitted in your mouth when you were three years old and therefore you are a homosexual or a punchpress operator. Everything but the truth: simply that some men feel bad because life is bad for them the way it is and it could easily be made better.”
"they hang in the parks with the Che idol, with pictures of Castro in their amulets, going OOOOOOOOMMMMMOOOOOOOMMM while William Burroughs, Jean Genet and Allen Ginsberg lead them. these writers have gone, soft, cuckoo, eggshit, female – not homo but female – and if I were a cop I’d feel like clubbing their addled brains myself."
— Charles Bukowski
10/28/15
10/25/15
IGNORANCE BLISS
"Knowledge without follow-through is worse than no knowledge at all. because if you're guessing and it doesn't work out you can just say, shit, the gods are against me. but if you know and don't do, you've got attics and dark halls in your mind to walk up and down in and wonder about. this ain't healthy, leads to unpleasant evenings, too much to drink and the shredding machine."
Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)
Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)
10/24/15
FRIENDSHIP
If you want to know who your friends are, get yourself a jail sentence.
Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)
Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)
10/12/15
YOU SAY YOU WANTED REVOLUTION?
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| nazi book burnings, 10 may 1933 |
"...then please be careful of your leaders, for there are many in your ranks who would rather be president of General Motors than burn down the Shell Oil station around the corner. but since they can’t have one, they take the other"
Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)
"The most radical revolutionary will become a conservative the day after the revolution."
Hannah Arendt
Godard also examines the role of the revolutionary within western culture. Although he believes western culture needs to be destroyed, it can only be done so by the rejection of intellectualisation. "There is only one way to be an intellectual revolutionary, and that is to give up being an intellectual"
10/11/15
THE DOS AND DONTS
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Bukowski, Notes of a Dirty Old Man (1969)
10/4/15
9/20/15
9/15/15
9/10/15
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8/27/15
8/13/15
6/24/15
HANK
"For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are
answered. But for those of us who can’t readily accept the God formula, the
big answers don’t remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and
discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command nor faith a
dictum. I am my own god. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the
church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We
are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our
lives so well that Death will tremble to take us."
Bukowski, Life Magazine, 1988
Bukowski, Life Magazine, 1988
SEXPECTATIONS
“and when love came to us twice
and lied to us twice
we decided to never love again
that was fair
fair to us
and fair to love itself.
we ask for no mercy or no
miracles;
we are strong enough to live
and to die and to
kill flies,
attend the boxing matches, go to the racetrack,
live on luck and skill,
get alone, get alone often,
and if you can't sleep alone
be careful of the words you speak in your sleep;
and
ask for no mercy
no miracles;
and don't forget:
time is meant to be wasted,
love fails
and death is useless.”
and lied to us twice
we decided to never love again
that was fair
fair to us
and fair to love itself.
we ask for no mercy or no
miracles;
we are strong enough to live
and to die and to
kill flies,
attend the boxing matches, go to the racetrack,
live on luck and skill,
get alone, get alone often,
and if you can't sleep alone
be careful of the words you speak in your sleep;
and
ask for no mercy
no miracles;
and don't forget:
time is meant to be wasted,
love fails
and death is useless.”
― Charles Bukowski, What Matters Most is How Well You Walk Through the Fire
5/31/15
SELF REFLECTION / SELF DESTRUCTION
Patti Smith "Just Kids"
5/20/15
JUST FINISHED!
"“If you’re not into transforming stuff into art / Don’t worry about it / Just keep doing it and keep doing…”
"The artist seeks contact with his intuitive sense of the gods, but in order to create his work, he cannot stay in this seductive and incorporeal realm. He must return to the natural world in order to do his work. It's the artist responsibility to balance mystical communication and the labor of creation."
"We never saw beyond New York save the books and never sat in an airplane holding each other's hand to ascend into a new sky and descend into a new earth."
5/14/15
WISH I COULD LOSE THE DAY WE MET
Creature comfort, supplicant
Let me tell you what I want
What's the use, a void of course
Take the abuse, make it worse
Creature comfort, delicate
Wish I could lose the day we met
Never in words to say this time
I should just keep this down inside
I wish..
You're the other half of the sky
Creature comfort me tonight.
Creature comfort, justify
I have been waiting all these lives
Everyone's changed their thoughts with age
Scratching their bird claws in my cage
I wish I could love the sun again
Help me love the sun again
I wish I could love
I wish you could love the sun again.
I could love
[Kidneythieves - Creature]
5/6/15
JUST KIDS
"old man with ceaseless childish enthusiasm
too curious about the future to look back"
Patti Smith "Just Kids"
I hope I'll be like that.
4/21/15
AYAHUASCA SESSION
Memories vanish fast
anything made to last?
I'm a non believer begging to be converted.
4/15/15
JUST FINISHED!
"What is terrible is not death but the lives people live or don’t live up until their death."
"We´re all going to die, all of us, what a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn´t. We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing."
The Captain is Out to Lunch and the Sailors have taken over the Ship, Bukowski (1998)
4/11/15
Mother
I told my mother that I really missed her. At the same time I told her I dont think she is actually listening.
But just in a way that somehow she lives by me. So she does hear me.
4/9/15
3/29/15
3/8/15
WOMEN'S DAY
To celebrate Women's day, I'd recommend watching documentaries on the different stories of two admirable woman: Jyoti Singh and Susan Sontag.
Jyoti was an Indian girl from a poor family determined to become a
doctor. She finished medical school in 2012 and went home to visit her
parents in Delhi. Her life was crushed when she hopped on a night bus
after going to the movies with a friend. Jyoti was brutally raped by six
man and died days later. The documentary features interviews with
rapist defendants and one of the convicted, who showed no remorse and
blamed the woman for not behaving "decently". Controversially, "India's
Daughter" has been banned in India, but you can see it here: bit.ly/indiabbcdaughter
I've read "On Photography" and other essays by Susan Sontag while in university, and became an admirer ever since. Susan was an American writer and filmmaker, teacher and political activist, who wrote extensively about photography, culture and media, human rights, feminism and many other topics. The New York Review of Books called her "one of the most influential critics of her generation." "Regarding Susan Sontag" is available on HBO GO. bit.ly/leeviasontag
3/3/15
I YAWN, THEREFORE I AM
As I don't have strong beliefs in an afterlife or any deity, I turned into philosophy to find comfort for the grief that posesses me since the recent death of my mother. I confess I haven't found any, but at least learned to formulate my questions better. Curious on the life of the so-called father of modern philosophy, Rene Descartes, I stumbled upon the informative but extremely boring Cartesius, a 1974 TV-film from Roberto Rossellini. Strange enough, in the early 60s Rossellini held a press conference to announce movies were a dead art form. He felt television was the art thing of the future and began to direct dramas based on the lives of historical figures. As Andy Nicastro pointed well on his critic, "Cartesius proves anything it is that an artist can sell out his talent to his own worst pedagogical ambitions just as readily (and ruinously) as he can sell out to political or commercial ones."
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