7/20/25





Identity is a complex thing in the social media age. There are of course perfectly valid arguments that even artists who present themselves under their own name still do so through an elaborately calculated and managed sense. In an era when bands and artists spew out meaningless hashtag politics to score online woke points, is it any less fake to simply lie about your entire existence under the guise of character? It balances an interesting and occasionally perilous line between exploring identity and being exploitative; between wily marketing and desperate tactics to do what it takes to get yourself heard and seen. So it asks the question: playfulness or perniciousness?


So does buying into the myth, as long as the music is good, supersede a need for truth? Does authenticity matter if the yarn or the art is good enough? 



6/19/25

The INTERNET


We learned that it can be an overconfident unreliable oracle - one that is often trying to sell us something - but we go to it anyway because it’s often right and if not, it’s at least always there.


From Search Engine, episode “The test”

5/25/25

another fascinating mental condition: Hyperthimesia




The mental condition of super memory, also known as Highly Superior Autobiographical Memory (HSAM), is a rare ability to recall details of one's life with exceptional accuracy. Individuals with HSAM can vividly remember specific events, dates, and even sensory details from their past, often including emotions and smells. This ability is not the same as eidetic memory, which involves retaining images vividly but for a shorter duration.

5/21/25

and yet another favorite new term: PSEUDOCIDE


Faking your own death, also known as a staged death or pseudocide, "isn't inherently a crime," James Quiggle of the Coalition Against Insurance Fraud said to Live Science in 2012, "but it involves so many built-in frauds that it's virtually impossible to legally fake."

Just downloaded the book "Playing Dead: A Journey Through the World of Death Fraud", from Elizabeth Greenwood. Tell you more about it later! 

5/12/25

new favorite terms for already favorite substances: EMPATHOGENS or ENTACTOGENS


Entactogens, also known as empathogens or connectogens, are a class of psychoactive drugs that induce the production of experiences of emotional communion, oneness, connectedness, emotional openness—that is, empathy—as particularly observed and reported for experiences with MDMA.[1][2][5][3][4] This class of drug is distinguished from the classes of hallucinogens or psychedelics and stimulants, although entactogens, for instance MDMA, can also have these properties.[1][4][6][7] Entactogens are used both as recreational drugs[8] and are being investigated for medical use in the treatment of psychiatric disorders, for instance MDMA-assisted therapy for post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).[9][10][11]

Notable members of this class include MDMA, MDAMDEAMDOHMBDB5-APB5-MAPB6-APB6-MAPBmethylonemephedroneαMTαET, and MDAI, among others.[1][5] Most entactogens are phenethylamines and amphetamines, although several, such as αMT and αET, are tryptamines.[1][5] When referring to MDMA and its counterparts, the term MDxx is often used (with the exception of certain non-entactogen drugs like MDPV).

Entactogens act as serotonin releasing agents (SRAs) as their key action.[12][13][5][14][15] However, entactogens also frequently have additional actions, such as induction of dopamine and norepinephrine and serotonin 5-HT2 receptor agonism, which contributes to their effects as well.[12][13][5][14][15] It is thought that dopamine and norepinephrine release provide additional stimulanteuphoriant, and cardiovascular or sympathomimetic effects, serotonin 5-HT2A receptor agonism produces psychedelic effects of variable intensity, and both dopamine release and serotonin 5-HT2 receptor agonism may enhance the entactogenic effects and be critically involved in allowing for the qualitative "magic" of these drugs.[12][13][5][14][15] Entactogens that simultaneously induce serotonin and dopamine release, for instance MDMA, are known to produce long-lasting serotonergic neurotoxicity[16][17][5] with associated cognitive and memory deficits as well as psychiatric changes.[18][19][20][21]

The term empathogen, meaning "generating a state of empathy", was independently coined by Ralph Metzner in 1983 and David E. Nichols in 1984 as a term to denote a class of drugs that includes MDMA and other agents with similar effects.[27][28][29] Subsequently, in 1986, Nichols rejected this initial terminology and adopted, instead, the term entactogen, meaning "producing a touching within", to denote this class of drugs, asserting a concern with the potential for improper association of the term empathogen with negative connotations related to the Greek root πάθος páthos ("suffering; passion").[1][4][6] Additionally, Nichols wanted to avoid any association with the term pathogenesis.[66]

Nichols also thought the original term was limiting, and did not cover other therapeutic uses for the drugs that go beyond instilling feelings of empathy.[3] The hybrid word entactogen is derived from the roots en (Greekwithin), tactus (Latintouch) and -gen (Greekproduce).[4] Entactogen is not becoming dominant in usage, and, despite their difference in connotation, they are essentially interchangeable, as they refer to precisely the same chemicals.

In 2024, an additional alternative term, connectogen, was proposed and introduced by Kurt Stocker and Matthias Liechti.[2]

Source: Wikipedia

5/5/25

IMPOSSIBILITY FREEDOM

Again

allure of doomed relationship splits me 

between 

tranquility 

and nonsense.

Desire and drive in all-time high

am I just trying to feel alive?

4/28/25

AYA SESSION

conversion-willing but never converted

to anything.

not proud.

still willing.


Mutum & me

4/25/25

12/16/24

NRCSSSTC HSTRNC

There’s no trap as deadly as the trap you set for yourself and the psychiatric psychos and no one else

12/9/24

LIMERENCE

"A romantic obsession that strong is known as limerence. It feels like being addicted to another person. Once captured by such an obsession, we have to confront some challenging questions about who we really are, what we really want, and why some people have the power to overwhelm our senses. And our sense."

11/30/24

Impossibles attract (me)




The perspective of the impossible

is more attractive

than reality

loyalty

tranquility.

Living in fantasy

seems easier

than reality.

But is it?



the KRM 2024 edition

8/8/24

the Madonna Whore complex

"Where such men love they have no desire, and where they desire they cannot love"

3/11/24

3/6/24

Meus sentimentos

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Não consigo medir

quando os sinto

só consigo sentir

sempre intenso

nada sai

do pensamento

2/28/24

2/15/24

INFINITE



I talk about Death

It's my obsession

Most important thing in life

Is its extinction

2/12/24

ITS YOU



senti uma coisa

será a impossibilidade

será minha verdade


será o poder

e o não poder ser


já esqueci seu rosto

mas não o gosto

ferrugem

sangue

gosto


Gostoso.

1/22/24

CHI

Heart-shaped lips

Meditative kiss

I just can't resist

12/26/23

AVOIDANT ME

Get away, away, away from your home

I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraidI'm afraid, afraid, ghost
Even if you have, even if you needI don't mean to stare, we don't have to breedWe can plant a house, we can build a treeI don't even care, we could have all three

 I don't care, I don't care, I don't care

I don't care, care, care if it's oldI don't mind, I don't mind, I don't mindI don't mind, mind, don't have a mind

12/9/23

GREAT HAIR DONT CARE

Give an inch, take a smile 
(I don't know why) 
 Fashion shits, fashion style 
(I don't know why) 
Put it out and keep it in 
(I don't know why) 
Have to have poison skin 
(I don't know why) 
Stay 
Stay away 
Stay away 
Stay away


Avoid the void
hollow
paranoid

10/25/23

AI AI AI outlook not so good

 


ChatGPT and other AI-fueled answering machines are the new magic 8-ball.

8/10/23

7/25/23

CRITTERS

Solomon wanted to commit suicide, but he thought a form of suicide appropriate to dadaism would be to go to a mental institution and demand a lobotomy.

2/20/23

CURRENT READ: ART SEX MUSIC

“a collective family of diverse people from all walks of life, each of us exploring and living out our fantasies or obsessions with the aim of achieving creative and self-awareness, and confidence as artists regardless of, and in opposition to, the conventional skill sets and criteria by which ‘artists’ are defined.” Excerpt From Art Sex Music Cosey Fanni Tutti

10/11/22

5/26/22

FOXY EX LOLITA

Marion Fayole

Marion Fayole

Please, can all this hot young man

Stop arriving

In airplanes